crucible of ennui

Hopefully I will be able to say something soon, but I’ll have to wait to see what’s going on here at work… Drama, weird feeling in the air, end of the fiscal year, projects being reassigned and whatnot.

There’s a storm a-brewin’

dang gunnit

I couldn’t even finish my last journal entry. Conference was a huge success and a huge disappointment – all wrapped into one huge couch-sized jagged hor d’orves I was forced to choke down then feign contentment. My boss got complete credit for all the work I put into conference. And although she thanked me for the hard work I put in, it doesn’t matter since she will never correct the perceptions that people made regarding her work and effort on conference. I kept holding out hope that somehow someone would see what was going on, but it’s just not going to happen. And I’m just plain tired.

Last year at this time I was up for a promotion into the department I’ve wanted to be in since I started here over 4 years ago. I take partial responsibility for that going down the drain – over-enthusiasm on my part and I learned a very important lesson on trust and humble pie. Ugh. And it was mighty bitter, let me tell ya.

I don’t know how much more is appropriate for me to swallow and suck up before I either permanently become a doormat or need to leave. And it makes me sick.

Schedule thus far:

Wednesday: golf
Thursday: registration
Friday: conference day 1
Saturday: conference day 2

2nd day of conference. And I scored a laptop with a decent online connection. Yesterday I worked from 9 a.m. until 8:00 p.m. Then we headed to the restaurant/pub at the hotel for dinner. THEN I went back to work and finished up around 12:30 a.m. I’m soooo tired this morning. Had to start and open the registration desk at 7:30 a.m.

Actually today I’m finished at 5:00 so I have time to nap a bit and freshen up before the harbor cruise tonight. Or as Sylvia and Heather dubbed it - “The Booze Cruise.”

Sweet Jesu

Okay I leave Tuesday night for conference. I’ll be back Sunday. I was stressed out and worried, but for some reason I’ve realized that I have everything under control and hopefully, excluding any minor glitches, everything will go smoothly. Did I mention I HATE drama?

grumble grumble

so sick of it

ugh it just sucks

pffft

bah

whatever

I’m so glad it’s the end of the week and things are looking up as of right now. I’m going to play all I can and have fun with everyone this weekend on DAoC, see a movie or two and go to an art show and then I’ll focuses on conference for the next two weeks. Less than two weeks away and I’m hella busy.

I’ll be even happier June 8th.

It’s almost over. This will be my third conference. But this time I can’t wait for it to be oooovah! June 4-8 will be just a wee bit tough since Christina up and got herself laid off due to office politics. “Hi Chris - you’re employee of the month!” the next week, “Hi Chris - we have to let you go!” what a load of shit.

Today I’m going to design the collateral we need for the registration folders - I’ll probably do 5-7 of them, then just run them off on the color laser printer. Hmm, think I’d better tell IS that I’m about to blow up the printer? MWAHAHAHAHAHA