crucible of ennui

corporate politics
pressed against that glass ceiling
bite my fekkin ass

Hopefully I will be able to say something soon, but I’ll have to wait to see what’s going on here at work… Drama, weird feeling in the air, end of the fiscal year, projects being reassigned and whatnot.

There’s a storm a-brewin’

dang gunnit

And I know that I’ll need to shorten this at one time with a link, cuz this is going to be a long one. Continue reading

You will live in Apartment.
You will drive a Pink Mini.
You will marry Glenn and have 2 kids.
You will be a Marketing Guru in Tokyo.

www.playmash.com

I tried Keanu – but it wasn’t meant to be…

Soon I will go home, log onto DAoC and kill stuff.

Then it’ll all be okay.

I couldn’t even finish my last journal entry. Conference was a huge success and a huge disappointment – all wrapped into one huge couch-sized jagged hor d’orves I was forced to choke down then feign contentment. My boss got complete credit for all the work I put into conference. And although she thanked me for the hard work I put in, it doesn’t matter since she will never correct the perceptions that people made regarding her work and effort on conference. I kept holding out hope that somehow someone would see what was going on, but it’s just not going to happen. And I’m just plain tired.

Last year at this time I was up for a promotion into the department I’ve wanted to be in since I started here over 4 years ago. I take partial responsibility for that going down the drain – over-enthusiasm on my part and I learned a very important lesson on trust and humble pie. Ugh. And it was mighty bitter, let me tell ya.

I don’t know how much more is appropriate for me to swallow and suck up before I either permanently become a doormat or need to leave. And it makes me sick.

Schedule thus far:

Wednesday: golf
Thursday: registration
Friday: conference day 1
Saturday: conference day 2

2nd day of conference. And I scored a laptop with a decent online connection. Yesterday I worked from 9 a.m. until 8:00 p.m. Then we headed to the restaurant/pub at the hotel for dinner. THEN I went back to work and finished up around 12:30 a.m. I’m soooo tired this morning. Had to start and open the registration desk at 7:30 a.m.

Actually today I’m finished at 5:00 so I have time to nap a bit and freshen up before the harbor cruise tonight. Or as Sylvia and Heather dubbed it – “The Booze Cruise.”

Sweet Jesu